My Undiscovered Purity

Ningombam Bupenda Meitei *

Alone, I came Alone,
I will go
Who is there to walk with me?
But none, at last.
To you, my tongue doesn't speak my heart speaks;
my eyes don't see, my mind sees.
My soul wants to meet your's
Where are you?
Oh!, no one for me my useless dream, it was I am mad...?
Life is funny, where reality becomes illusion
Where none dares to discover the humble and the pure.
My wealth lost, my moments gone, my energy wasted,
my dreams shattered,
Only and only to make myself,
A man of mockery, a man of failure.
No more, I am the King in a Lost Paradise of fantasies,
I have failed to know "Life" but,
I have passed to learn "Man".
My eyes are filled with tears,
I call them "the price of my foolishness".
But, still, those tears are pure
I don't want to let them fall down on this impure soil of mankind.
Console my inner self, mend my broken heart, bring a smile on my face,
When can I laugh whole heartedly?
Oh!, my friend "Loneliness",
You are my strength,
You are my audience.
If you have decided not to walk with me, not to discover me.
I am happy; happy that in my small attic,
I have discovered myself, my own purity.
Why should I tell it to others?
Let me fight the battle of my life alone.

"The Journey with three poems" is a small collection of the three inter related poems from the collection of innumerous English poems of the poet. It gets completed not with the mere three poems but truely gets successful with the arrival of the true angel in the poet's life and its not neccessarily meant that the poet has actually encountered with one beauty whose physical presence can be sensed in the present world.

The discovery of the poet's purity by the true angel can also be philosophical and for literary joy too.

It essentially targets those who live a lonely life and prefer to travel as a loner but ultimately, on his way, his true angel welcomes him to realise the true meaning of both of his and her existence on the earth, in the humane world and indeed in the universe as a whole.

The poems may be well read by gentlemen when they are alone or for their beautiful angels.