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E-Pao! Canadian born confused desi

Canadian Born Confused Desi
By Muskan Mittal



Light! Camera! Action! I came out from my mother's tummy. Thats when the story started, the story of a Canadian Born Confused Desi (CBCD).

Who am I? What am I? Where do I belong to? Which culture and tradition should I follow? What do I call myself? A canadian? An indian? A meitei or a so called "mayang"? Pheww!!!

For a start, I am a girl with an Indian background, born and raised in Canada. So....do I call myself a canadian because am born and raised here? Or do I call myself an Indian because I have an Indian background? And if i do call myself an Indian, am I a mayang or a meitei?

My dad is a mayang and mom is a wonderful meitei leima (don't mind if the word is incorrect). I guess am half meitei and half mayang. STUCK IN THE MIDDLE HUH!!!. So...should I do both "karwa chauth" and "ningol chakouba"? Well...some people call me "MDH" masala and even "chana chur" (not sure about spelling). But hey!!...they are tasty! (can't leave that part).

As I grew older, I started searching for my true identity. Where do i actually belong? I can't say Manipur because that is not quite right. Should I say India? But which part of India? I speak english just like a Canadian, French...hmm...don't ask, Hindi...i think am pretty good and Manipuri!!....my Manipuri pronunciation is really really...good, like the way meitei says "kwa" (pan) I say it as "kouwa" which sounds like crow in Hindi.

I remember the first time (may be not first time but the one I remember) I visited india, especially Manipur, a fantastic, wonderful place. I felt like I'm someone that belong there, which is not true....I actually couldn't believe it when tears ran down on my cheeks when I was about to leave such a "babaroma babalicious" (lovely) place.

For the past few years, I tried to find out more and more about my roots and the more I came to know, more and more questions started popping out of my head. I have been searching for the answers for a loong time and I'll keep searching. Sometimes...I asked myself, Am I a person that doesn't fit in at all in those two backgrounds that I have? Well..DUH!!

Many people ask thousands of question about my background and lot more......well...what can I say? "Oh please!...this poor girl is suffering from "confusia"..hehehe. Excuse moi! GIMME A BREAK!


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